Friday, April 23, 2010

Unsatisfying

I had to say goodbye to a friend tonight and it was  most unsatisfying. We had a good run in our day and things have changed so much since then. We really lost touch with each other and it was hard. I gave her a hug goodbye and there wasn’t really anything there. I thought there would be, I held on, hoping it would come, but it didn’t. It was just two people wrapping arms around each other.

The last time we had parted, our hug was powerful, she left in tears and I left without looking back. I think that’s how I want to remember this parting. Touching, meaningful, passionate, loving.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Unhappy

Friday April 2: Tonight I am not happy. I am unhappy. However the tin-man just announced he was having a baby with Dorothy. That was funny. I’m still not happy though.

I went to see Dirty Rotten Scoundrels at Hale Center Theater with Davey. It was hilarious. I didn’t really enjoy it. I went to Parry’s after party. Nope, not happy there either. Came home and gave sunshine a rubdown, felt nice, not happy. How much is happiness really a choice? I mean we can’t pawn our emotions off on everyone else’s actions or choices, but can you really say, “I’m gonna be happy” and do it?? Really? Snap out of it.